I'm bored and can't sleep, and that's never a good combination LOL
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Sometime last week... it happen, I've learned to deal with it :p
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Sometimes
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
oven roasted turkey :)
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Nope
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yeah, I'm a good friend (at least I think so)
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
HA HA I don't always get when someone is being sarcastic... I try to be sarcastic and I just doesn't come out right.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
yes
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I probably could if I knew I could without causing worse medical problems
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Lucky Charms
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope, my converse stayed tied all the time
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
For the most part, yes.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Chocolate or Blue Bell's Homemade Strawberry
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
probably their eyes
15. RED OR PINK?
umm, both?
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
I'm too quiet sometimes.
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
right now my best friend who lives in Texas
18. ANY TATTOOS?
yes, 7
19. DO YOU HAVE ANY HOBBIES?
reading, playing Sims 3, crocheting
20. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
i'm barefoot
21. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
pizza
22. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Sara Bareilles "I Choose You"
23. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
plum
24. FAVORITE SMELLS?
freshly cut grass, rain, apple cinnamon, chocolate chip cookies fresh from the oven, Eucalyptus
25. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My papa
26. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
depends on the time of year
27. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
The Olympics, I like both summer and winter events
28. HAIR COLOR?
dark brown/auburn-ish
29. EYE COLOR?
blue
30. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
No
31. FAVORITE FOOD?
eh, I don't really have any favorites right now. I got burn out on my all time fave mac-n-cheese
32. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
mostly happy endings, but I like a scary movie here and there
33. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Breaking Dawn Part #1
34. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
red
35. SUMMER OR WINTER?
I prefer spring or fall actually
36. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hugs
37. FAVORITE DESSERT?
do cookies count?
38. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
umm neither, unless walking is one of those...so cardio? yeah
39. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
both
40. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn
41. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
i'm on a laptop
42. FAVORITE SOUND?
rain, my cat purring is more of a vibration but it's my favorite too
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Texas
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Not really
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Dearborn, MI
47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
Manchester, TN
48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?
dark tan siding
49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
beige/gold
50. WHAT'S YPUR BIRTHSTONE?
Aquamarine, I love the color of it
51. DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS?
yeah, it means "fair one"
52. WHAT'S A PHRASE YOU SAY OFTEN?
"it is what it is"
53. LAST CD YOU BOUGHT?
MKTO (no shame!)
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Thoughts
Warning: this may be all over the place...
Tonight (or morning technically) I have these random thoughts rushing through my head as I lay in bed with my headphone on listening to MKTO (fave new obsession of sorts). Friday (18th) will be my stomaversary. What is that you say? Well it's the "anniversary" of getting my stoma (see previous posts). As I lay here I wonder just how many of my friends actually know what a stoma, or an ostomy bag is and does it change their perception of me? I know that may sound crazy but it's a serious thought I have. A LOT. I try to be careful not to openly post things on my facebook about it... but not because I am ashamed. Truth is I'm not sure how others will handle it. I know a few people know what I've been through, even fewer have actually seen me since getting my bag. Sad but true, but hey it's not like I was ever a partier before getting so sick I thought I was gonna die. (it's the truth) Anyways getting back to my thoughts...
Does having this thing attached to me really change how people see me? It shouldn't, but sadly there is such a misconception of ostomies and what it means that I feel so many shy away from asking questions out of fear. Maybe I'm wrong. I hope I am. I like to think I don't care what others think of me and on some level I don't, I'm confident in my own skin. On another level I do care, I think if everyone was honest a part of them cares just a bit. Truth is I do the same thing everyone else does just in a different way now. Yes, I just went there, LOL.
It has been a hard year, but I have over come a lot and as I embark on what this journey will throw my way I have these random thoughts. Crohn's disease is a cruel thing and I struggle every day not to let it turn me into a bitter person who sees the world as the glass half empty. Honestly it's hard, but I have a good support system. I feel blessed to have my family. My friends, the ones who really KNOW me, gosh I don't know what I'd do without them. Near or far they have taken time out of their days to check on me. They know who they are. I wish one of them lived closer, a lot closer! I miss her so much :(
Well, I'm not sure this made much sense but my head seems a bit less cluttered so mission accomplished! To whoever reads this, thank you. Really :)
Time for snuggles with my babies, until next time :)
Tonight (or morning technically) I have these random thoughts rushing through my head as I lay in bed with my headphone on listening to MKTO (fave new obsession of sorts). Friday (18th) will be my stomaversary. What is that you say? Well it's the "anniversary" of getting my stoma (see previous posts). As I lay here I wonder just how many of my friends actually know what a stoma, or an ostomy bag is and does it change their perception of me? I know that may sound crazy but it's a serious thought I have. A LOT. I try to be careful not to openly post things on my facebook about it... but not because I am ashamed. Truth is I'm not sure how others will handle it. I know a few people know what I've been through, even fewer have actually seen me since getting my bag. Sad but true, but hey it's not like I was ever a partier before getting so sick I thought I was gonna die. (it's the truth) Anyways getting back to my thoughts...
Does having this thing attached to me really change how people see me? It shouldn't, but sadly there is such a misconception of ostomies and what it means that I feel so many shy away from asking questions out of fear. Maybe I'm wrong. I hope I am. I like to think I don't care what others think of me and on some level I don't, I'm confident in my own skin. On another level I do care, I think if everyone was honest a part of them cares just a bit. Truth is I do the same thing everyone else does just in a different way now. Yes, I just went there, LOL.
It has been a hard year, but I have over come a lot and as I embark on what this journey will throw my way I have these random thoughts. Crohn's disease is a cruel thing and I struggle every day not to let it turn me into a bitter person who sees the world as the glass half empty. Honestly it's hard, but I have a good support system. I feel blessed to have my family. My friends, the ones who really KNOW me, gosh I don't know what I'd do without them. Near or far they have taken time out of their days to check on me. They know who they are. I wish one of them lived closer, a lot closer! I miss her so much :(
Well, I'm not sure this made much sense but my head seems a bit less cluttered so mission accomplished! To whoever reads this, thank you. Really :)
Time for snuggles with my babies, until next time :)
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
It's almost been a year
On July 18 it'll be a year since I had life saving surgery. A year since I was in the worst pain I have ever been in. A whole year of fighting to not let Crohn's Disease over take me, and not letting my ileostomy define who I am. It hasn't been easy, but then again nothing in my life has been. Most days I accept that this is my new way of life, but some days I just want to scream.
I honestly don't remember much from last summer, especially the end of June and on. What I do remember is being so scared but not wanting to show it. I KNEW something was wrong but I had been doing all the right things. Going to my doctor appointments and taking the suggested medications... I was in the hospital a total of 6 times and had several blood transfusions and all the while nobody seemed to know what was really happening to me. My insides were falling apart and I was slowly filling with toxins...
Flash forward 12 months and now I'm an ostomate for life with my permanent "mate" Stella. She's a real diva and very picky about the bag she carries :p
I honestly don't remember much from last summer, especially the end of June and on. What I do remember is being so scared but not wanting to show it. I KNEW something was wrong but I had been doing all the right things. Going to my doctor appointments and taking the suggested medications... I was in the hospital a total of 6 times and had several blood transfusions and all the while nobody seemed to know what was really happening to me. My insides were falling apart and I was slowly filling with toxins...
Flash forward 12 months and now I'm an ostomate for life with my permanent "mate" Stella. She's a real diva and very picky about the bag she carries :p
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