Ok so this post is long over due and is probably gonna be all over the place... I don't even know where to start honestly. Some days I find myself doing really good. I don't think about the past year of my life, I don't miss the false comfort I made myself believe I was feeling. Other days I want to hide under my sheets and curse the world. Today is one of those days.
I've found myself questioning things today. Things like how could I have been such a fool? Did I matter at all? Was I just a means to an end? Then of course I shut down and pray that the answers I wish to seek aren't as bad as I think they are... but they probably are. That's life... but hey life goes on, right?
I'm getting off topic... if there was a topic. Let's just say heart break is the topic of this post. Heart break from a boyfriend... heart break from a friend you've known for 20-something years... no matter who it's coming from it sucks all the same.
The boyfriend heart break, well it was due to happen. I just kept hanging on hoping it wouldn't. I'm not as crushed as I thought I'd be... probably because I was preparing myself. I've been listening to "Wanted You More" by Lady Antebellum. LOVE that song, and it's SO true...
The friend heart break. Well that just down right sucks! Stop talking to me over a girl? Are we 10 again fighting over power rangers? I can't say I didn't try even if my stubborn self may have put her foot in her own mouth... I tried all the same.
I'm losing focus... why? Well my adorable cat is laying at my feet and I can't resist her. She makes me oh so very happy when I wanna cry. Lord knows she's felt many a tear grace her soft fur but she loves me just the same :)
until next time...
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